I finally did it, I finally made a decision about whether or not I will be participating in this years recital. The answer is…no.
I bumbled my way through my explanation to my teacher, but she got the point.
It’s not that I don’t want to perform (though that does stress me out more than it should). It’s more that I don’t think I am going to be with that studio anymore by the end of the year.
I don’t want to string her along. If I am not going to perform then she needs to know so she can make other plans.
Originally I had told my teacher that I might be moving. That was true at the time. Though it is looking more and more like I am going to be staying right here.
Now that my excuse for moving was gone, I just simply had to tell her I didn’t want to do it.
It is a huge relief and I think it is going to help me in the long run when I eventually tell my teacher that I don’t want to come to class anymore full stop.
The trouble is, only one girl is left to perform the recital piece.
But staying just so she isn’t alone isn’t fair on me either. I am just not having fun anymore. If I am not having fun, then what’s the point?
I never leave class with the same feeling of happiness that I do in my other class.
I just need to find something to replace it with.
Other than that, class was ok. I did some one footed relevé’s on pointe again, which was nice.
In Intermediate Foundation this week we practiced the en dehors pirouette combination again.
I would really like to master this one. Particularly after all the practice I have been doing at home.
However, I keep overturning. I think its a combination of the floor being a bit slicker than I am used to and the fact that I am trying to turn in demi pointe shoes.
At the end of class our teacher said that she would like us to wear our pointe shoes every second week so we can strengthen our pointe work.
This reminded me that I wanted to ask her about Gaynor Mindens.
She said that she has no problem with it and thinks that we should wear whatever brand of shoes we feel most comfortable with.
So that evening I sent off tracings of my feet to Gaynor Minden to see what they would suggest.
They were really quick in their response. The lady was super nice and suggested I try a size 10, box 3, Medium, High Vamp, Low Heel.
I tried a number 3 box originally. In fact, that was what the lady at the store suggested a year ago. However, I just didn’t like the feel or look of it.
So I asked if there was a possibility a number 4 box would work for me. Particularly cause the platform is closer to the size I am used to.
She said it would be fine and if I needed some extra support I could try the instant wings.
I haven’t ordered anything yet. Partly because I feel like I need to make my way through the shoes that I have, but also because I love the way the Freed’s look on my feet.
I originally got Freed because I wanted to properly learn pointe work using traditional shoes. I kind of still want that.
On the weekend I decided to change the elastics on my Freed’s to see if it would make a difference. I originally had those invisible elastics on them, but I think they weren’t tight enough. So I swapped them with the traditional type of elastic. Maybe that will keep my heel on.
I also glued the shank back down on my right shoe. It has always been a bit loose, and now I am wondering if that contributed to the twisting I have on that side.
On Saturday I decided to check out a class at the dance centre that a few girls from class have been going to.
We have a group chat on whatsapp and occasionally someone asks if anyone is interested in going.
Usually I don’t go. I like to take class during the week and keep my weekends free. However, this time I decided to check it out.
The teacher was very kind and gave lots of helpful tips to everyone. Her exercises were basic, but still a little challenging.
She explained things like where to put your weight when you do a soutenu turn to the other side of the barre, how to properly come down from a relevé, and how to properly lift your leg in attitude.
She told me to really lift up. During a relevé passe she tried to push my relevé higher. I wish I had the strength to hold it that high.
We did about an hr and 10 mins at the barre before moving to centre.
In centre I finally had an opportunity to have a look at the other students. I was happily surprised with that I saw.
Even though you could see that they were adult beginners, they had really good technique. Even one of the older ladies was doing pretty good en dedans pirouettes!
You could tell how much having a good teacher had helped them.
This week my company contact replied with some good news. He said that he was finally able to ask his boss about doing a private at their studios. Although officially it isn’t exactly allowed, he doesn’t mind if we do it discretely.
So next Saturday I am going to have a private with him 🙂 I hope he doesn’t have very high expectations. I may wear Yumikos but I am far from a professional.
It’s good timing actually because I only have two classes left on my 10er card at my old studio. With the cost of the privates I am really going to have to say good bye.
The only problem is that I have a new job that starts the week after next that might involve working on Saturdays. Hopefully this private isn’t the first and last one…
Have a lovely week everyone!