Even though I am generally the type of person who tries to avoid confrontation (but then broods over what I might have said later), I felt particularly brave on Tuesday evening.
If class had been enjoyable I might have chickened out for another week, but class left me feeling the same way at has for the past few months…unhappy.
So I found the courage after pointe class and went up to the teacher and told her that my 10er card was finishing next week and that I would like to try something new after it. She listened intently as I spoke, but in the end she just said something like „Of course, you are welcome back here anytime“
And that was it..
I have seen many a girl leave the studio, and the teacher has generally looked sad. However, I feel like she just kind of accepted that I was leaving. I have been there for two years, I guess I was just expecting more of a response from her…
Maybe that will come this coming Tuesday?
Like I said, class was generally underwhelming. I did a few pointe exercises at the barre and in the center before I felt my ankle hurt. So I sat to the side and watched the other girls dance.
After pointe class my teacher started rehearsing the end of year performance with the one girl who is left.
This week I also started communicating with the store I bought my Gaynor Mindens from. I think I am going to go back to them when my last pair of Freed’s die.
I know, I know. This blog is full of me going back and forth between pointe shoes.
This time I became convinced to try Gaynor’s in my Syllabus classes because of a documentary series on youtube called „Ballet a la Russe“
Above is episode 1.
Pretty much all the Russian Ballerina’s I see are wearing Gaynors.
I think I am in store for another 6 week wait because of my weird shoe size. Apparently not many people with a narrow foot want a number 4 box.
On Thursday I, luckily, made the decision to double check with my teacher if it was ok to have leather on the platform of the shoes, or if I should stick with Satin.
Most Gaynor’s I have seen are with leather on the platform.
She said that she prefers Satin, because the floor at the studio makes leather tipped pointe shoes stick too much.
So I have ordered Gaynors with the satin platform in the same size as my old ones. This time I am going to use the instant Wings. I think they are going to make the shoe hug my foot even better. At the moment I just have the box liner, but that only covers the box (obviously) and not the metatarsals.
You might be asking, why can’t you just wear your current pair of gaynors there? Thats because the platform and underside of my shoes are completely black from the old studio floor. The beautiful pink satin is also marked with black stains. I also pancaked them with white shoe polish to make them look a little more acceptable.
The new studio has beautifully clean white floors. I don’t want to come in with my dirty shoes!
And.. I just want pretty new ones so I can start fresh.
In IF this week we focused on adding in the arms to the second petit allegro combination we worked on last week. It felt nearly impossible to focus on all that once. However, by the third attempt, I felt a little more coordinated.
Despite my teacher saying that she wanted to rotate between doing class on flat and en pointe, she hasn’t implemented it yet.
In my second class we repeated the combinations we learnt last week.
This time around the petit allegro that I struggled with last week felt so much easier! I think the tempo was a little slower than last week, but I still felt like I had improved.
I haven’t had much of a chance to do much at home. I started a new job and have been completely tired every evening.
I did however find time to sew my new Freed’s and break them in. I feel soo much more supported now. Though, getting over the box isn’t as easy as before 😛
I also haven’t had a chance to arrange another private yet.
Life just sometimes gets in the way.
Hope you all had a lovely week!